Day 1
8:00 AM
Hey there! Today I decided that I will break free from the pain of an emotionally abusive and toxic relationship that has ended two days ago. This will chronicle my journey on how to heal from the hurt.
You see, I was in a relationship with a guy that clearly wasn't meant for me. Yes, we loved each other. Too much that it already became too suffocating and painful. We fought all the time. There were shouting, tears, and sometimes even beating. We tried to make it work. I tried to. For 2 years I've never loved anyone the way that I loved him. That's why when it ended, I was so broken.
I was hysterical when he called it off. I begged for him to stay. I said I would change. I called, texted, emailed, left a message on Instagram, but to no avail. For one day I was crazy begging him, crying for him to come back. And then I realize, why would I force myself to someone who doesn't want me anymore? That's why I decided to start this blog. I hope this will help me to let go, move on, and heal from the pain. I know it's not going to be easy, there will be lots of weak moments and set-backs. Please bear with me if ever I do a step back - as long as I move forward two steps further.
Today, I promise I won't beg anymore for him to talk to me. I will stop sending messages. I will stop stalking him. I will move on.
With the grace of God, I will be able to move on.
2:00 PM
I mentioned earlier that there will be weak moments. But I didn't expect that it will be this early - just few hours after I mentioned that I will already move on. Just now, I went to the toilet to cry - because I couldn't contain my sadness. I miss him. I miss everything about him - his kisses, hugs, good morning and good night texts, his voice. Everything.
But then I realized, he won't come back anymore. I should not hope. I need to start moving - one step at a time.
Hey there! Today I decided that I will break free from the pain of an emotionally abusive and toxic relationship that has ended two days ago. This will chronicle my journey on how to heal from the hurt.
You see, I was in a relationship with a guy that clearly wasn't meant for me. Yes, we loved each other. Too much that it already became too suffocating and painful. We fought all the time. There were shouting, tears, and sometimes even beating. We tried to make it work. I tried to. For 2 years I've never loved anyone the way that I loved him. That's why when it ended, I was so broken.
I was hysterical when he called it off. I begged for him to stay. I said I would change. I called, texted, emailed, left a message on Instagram, but to no avail. For one day I was crazy begging him, crying for him to come back. And then I realize, why would I force myself to someone who doesn't want me anymore? That's why I decided to start this blog. I hope this will help me to let go, move on, and heal from the pain. I know it's not going to be easy, there will be lots of weak moments and set-backs. Please bear with me if ever I do a step back - as long as I move forward two steps further.
Today, I promise I won't beg anymore for him to talk to me. I will stop sending messages. I will stop stalking him. I will move on.
With the grace of God, I will be able to move on.
2:00 PM
I mentioned earlier that there will be weak moments. But I didn't expect that it will be this early - just few hours after I mentioned that I will already move on. Just now, I went to the toilet to cry - because I couldn't contain my sadness. I miss him. I miss everything about him - his kisses, hugs, good morning and good night texts, his voice. Everything.
But then I realized, he won't come back anymore. I should not hope. I need to start moving - one step at a time.
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